a fresh start

and so that friday's youth day performance put up by the teachers was interesting and funny only because of mrs keith koh's great acting.she's the hottest women i've ever seen.period

and so rushed to the indoor stadium after human geog papers (talking about the geog papers, i think everyone did the most they could irregardless of how much they studied) to attend ceteris paribus's performance(they were seriously not bad at all).but my point here is that i didnt like the fact that ppl had to beg(or ask) others to get tickets for me.i wasnt invited for a start and i really really didnt wanna barge into outings just like that(whats more,i was darn broke already).you know the feeling when people are just about to go out or something and they're talking about it just realising that they've unintentionally forgotten about you or that they intentionally do so or the circumstances earlier didnt allowed them to but now since you've heard it they felt bad and so invited you?i'm not saying that i'm a jealous twerp or what for that matter,it just got me thinking of the many instances so far and i so dont like the feeling of people having to sympathise with me,be guilty (if they do have a conscience.haha) or like as the chinese puts it 'wei qu' one-self.i know where i stand.i seriously (think i) do.i dont know why but i just dont like it and considering friday,it was quite rare of me to go after having such feelings

and so i (did not know what got into me that made me) decide to tag along to watch the soccer-cum-closing ceremony at the outdoor stadium on sat.it was fun nonetheless with the hype and all especially that of the kallang wave not forgetting the vulgarities but well, thats what makes us singaporeans so special and unique right?and i think the only time you would see singaporeans singing the national anthem so loudly and proudly would be during a soccer match between different countries

and so sunday was pretty much wasted working but monday (which is today) was quite enlightening i would say.went to catch the sun at sentosa but it rained and the whole day was preety-much cloudy and so went to eat after the futile tanning session with the church peeps.lol but the good thing was that eversince not going back for Altarboy's meetings,i had alot of things to talk about with LFJP and we seriously saw things through and understood our course of actions (and that of others) and people and their levels of significance more.it felt great to confide in someone and you feel as though being pulled out of the shitty situation you're in which many around you are also enduring.today was great.cheers to those out there who're still going through shit!may you overcome them and get on with life

and so i'm off to bed coz i'm tired and already am incoherent and there's still that screwed up ocs thingy tml.i swear lifes would be loss if its not interesting and fun