a fresh start

i began to wonder... where did i go wrong?

my god. i have either been coming to school late or picking which day to be auspicious to skip as and when i like. today w-w-was because my grany had to go to the hospital (really! i swear!) to check if any nerve in her right eye had burst after the eye op she had had few weeks back to see if there is any need to go for an eye op for her left. this one convincingly put by the doctor. not to mention i also had a serious bout of flu...

anyway i still dont understand why i cant score like how i used to score in my secondary days even if i go out and play all day. darn and i'm still not scoring for lit. like what the fuck happened? have been studying for econs ONLY since i'm weakest in't and shall concentrate more on others if i have the time and AS-fucking-P/the-ASP-of-my-life is not helping in anyway. minus one hour from our h1 sub? like that fucking helps (not as if they're productive or what). it only covers my travelling distance or maybe less. and schools like cjc end ALL their lessons latest 2pm EVERYDAY. like what the hell!?! i feel so marginalized! whats the use of teaching us the skills when we do not even have the content and you think 2 weeks is enough to understand and memorise our whole syllabus? indeed a well planned plan. and as i complain into the day-lights it all boils down to me choosing this stupid school...

anyway i have been indulging in my daily (if not thrice weekly) dose of teh tarik ice cream and acjc girls at serene centre. i tell you heaven. i mean the ice cream...