a fresh start

preety much getting used to studying though its not enough and prelims are ridiculously early accompanied by the tonnes of homework namely essays from the lit department.just hope i can make it coz i really wanna do well for the prelims

went out with leo francis jason prabu and jonathan ee yao hong to mount faber for a thursday night rendezvous :) we contemplated upon the mysteries of friendships and it turned out into more of a debate and seriously jonathan ee yao hong is a hopeless piece of damn shit.and an irritating stubborn retarded incoherent one at that.haha but he is still my friend though though i really think that he should trust people more and give people the benefit of the doubt.this rant-des-verse of mine resulted in me reaching home at 4 in the morning but the spectacular view made up for it and i still stand by my grounds that mount faber is still the most romantic place to go with your other half.yea surprisingly inspired by some ppl who drank whisky in school i've found a new way to keep awake during lessons/lectures!drink baileys+kopi!i swear never lie!i did not sleep despite sleeping at 4plus the night before.total coolness am so gonna do it more often lur

sometime back i was going through some posts and spotted a letter - 1. You are hereby required under the Enlistment Act (Chapter 93) to report for Vocational Assessment ... Sembawang Naval Base ... - and darn so i cant get into the Airforce anymore?advice please cuz i know nuts about this army thingy

'i'm not crazy,i'm just a little unwell'

well.i got 11/100 for econs.a fucking disappointment to make brief.i really felt darn remorseful towards mrs lim for not studying for econs despite all the effort she hath put in.the look she gave me while i was staring blankly at my marks on the cover page of the block test paper - indescribable.didnt dare look into her eyes throughout econs tutorial today.my conscience pricks and i can just imagine how disappointed she was.all i can say is that i'm dead sorry

u for econs, u for lit, s for maths, prolly s for gp and geog.what the hell was i thinking?now, you can laugh at what a sad fuck i am.go on

that aside,i felt awful when my presence was not acknowledged by her.i know she has the right to do so after all i've done and isnt that what i wanted?no?i really dont know whats up with me man.but i seriously have/had my reasons

as seen.life hasnt been good to me lately or rather i haven been a very good boy and therefore deserve the spanking or "school karma" as advised by my loyal knight sir barton.bahh just let me soak in disappointment for now and i'll be alright tomorrow.i think

ooo.friday the thirteenth.uberstitious

and so that friday's youth day performance put up by the teachers was interesting and funny only because of mrs keith koh's great acting.she's the hottest women i've ever seen.period

and so rushed to the indoor stadium after human geog papers (talking about the geog papers, i think everyone did the most they could irregardless of how much they studied) to attend ceteris paribus's performance(they were seriously not bad at all).but my point here is that i didnt like the fact that ppl had to beg(or ask) others to get tickets for me.i wasnt invited for a start and i really really didnt wanna barge into outings just like that(whats more,i was darn broke already).you know the feeling when people are just about to go out or something and they're talking about it just realising that they've unintentionally forgotten about you or that they intentionally do so or the circumstances earlier didnt allowed them to but now since you've heard it they felt bad and so invited you?i'm not saying that i'm a jealous twerp or what for that matter,it just got me thinking of the many instances so far and i so dont like the feeling of people having to sympathise with me,be guilty (if they do have a conscience.haha) or like as the chinese puts it 'wei qu' one-self.i know where i stand.i seriously (think i) do.i dont know why but i just dont like it and considering friday,it was quite rare of me to go after having such feelings

and so i (did not know what got into me that made me) decide to tag along to watch the soccer-cum-closing ceremony at the outdoor stadium on sat.it was fun nonetheless with the hype and all especially that of the kallang wave not forgetting the vulgarities but well, thats what makes us singaporeans so special and unique right?and i think the only time you would see singaporeans singing the national anthem so loudly and proudly would be during a soccer match between different countries

and so sunday was pretty much wasted working but monday (which is today) was quite enlightening i would say.went to catch the sun at sentosa but it rained and the whole day was preety-much cloudy and so went to eat after the futile tanning session with the church peeps.lol but the good thing was that eversince not going back for Altarboy's meetings,i had alot of things to talk about with LFJP and we seriously saw things through and understood our course of actions (and that of others) and people and their levels of significance more.it felt great to confide in someone and you feel as though being pulled out of the shitty situation you're in which many around you are also enduring.today was great.cheers to those out there who're still going through shit!may you overcome them and get on with life

and so i'm off to bed coz i'm tired and already am incoherent and there's still that screwed up ocs thingy tml.i swear lifes would be loss if its not interesting and fun