a fresh start

some may say:

'however brightly a piece of coal may be burning, it will soon burn out if you remove it from the flames. however intelligent a man may be, he will soon lose his warmth and his flame if he distances himself from his fellow man.'

its not as though i havent experienced a breakaway from church before. this was phase two of it. the first was god-knows-when ages ago after le seperation. anyway back to the point could it be due to the turbulent period in my life where i no longer believed in God, or, rather, i no longer believed that the spiritual world was very important as coelho puts it? but what i did yesterday was way unexpected. attended mass and went for the Altarboys meeting and even taught newcomer timothy poh how to serve High mass. was this dissidence of mine extinguished? or was it just a fluke where i felt guilty or maybe even lonely? or to the point that i just happened to have nothing-else-better-to-do on a saturday evening? watever it was it felt good to relieve those times where i was (how do i put it) still a staunch catholic, a committed altarboy. the time spent was well worth it and as quoted by alexander michael chong chang ren and numerous times by leo francis jason prabu along these lines: 'the old times are back again'. was this a sign?